My Slow Descent

I've been trying to self medicate. It's been fucking awful. I try to eat every day the way someone on a "normal" healthy diet would: Protein, low carb, etc etc but I still feel guilty. I max....MAX out at 500 calories a day and I feel like my skin is crawling. How am I suppose to get up to a normal 12-1600 a day!? This is unbelievable. I need to see that I can eat this way and not gain too much fr me to be ok with this.....

-Lux.